They say men don't cry. I think it takes a real man to show his tears in moments of an absolute emotional intensity.
They say money can't buy us happiness. But it can buy train tickets to a beloved one far away; and being with that person equals happiness.
They say jealousy is born from lack of trust. I say it's born at the bottom of our subconsciousness which is filled with complex fears collected all along.
Opinion of the public, the general, the 'all' is not important. It does not matter. It never did and never really will matter, nor come to any use. It will not affect our lives in any way. It may of course affect our actions, thoughts and point of view, but it's all but permanent. If we were to listen to the voice of others we would generally assume that a man that cries is not a man at all, a train ticket to see your love
is nothing but a piece of paper that you find on a pathway, and that jealousy should be taken as a sign of lack of trust in the other person we would all loose the last pieces of faith long ago.
Then why even care about the opinion of others? Cant we just simply let them talk, let them have their own point of view and still be unaffected by it. Too often, opinion of the public shapes our beliefs, our thoughts and words. Too often we base our answers on what others have already said. Why cant we simply get in the habit of independent thinking and shaping our own point of view?
So I say- tears make a real man. Money can indeed buy us happiness and jealousy is not synonymous to 'lack of trust'.
Jealousy is rather a form of fear, which sometimes reaches its extremities, slowly making its way from the bottom of the previously hurt subconsciousness to the heart and spreading rapidly to the blood-system making you feel as if nothing could get as terrifying as this. One, theoretically small impulse can make your hands shake, your heart race, your legs numb, your face is covered in tears in seconds, your lungs forget how to work. Your surroundings become a blur and all you want is to run and hide forever. Not because you feel betrayed, but because you feel worse, disappointed, worthless. You can't do anything about it. And I can't do anything about it.
It feels as if everything you thought you meant to that person was built on an unstable ground, as if he decided to show you there still is someone more important, or at least, as important as you are. That you will never be THE most important person in his life. And it hurts double as much if you have experienced something like this before from the same person and the wounds aren't fully healed yet. He made you believe you are not important to him once, he can do it much easier the second time. That's the way it works.
Even if you know he loves you, even if you know you're the only one, it will not be possible to fully assure you that you're the most important person to him in a long, long time. Old wounds make foundation for our fears and beliefs. And it's not that you don't trust him, it's the old wounds that don't let you be completely sure. It's like a door that you try to close, but there's something stuck in the door frame and you can't close it completely. That's how it works.
So I say- jealousy is not about the lack of trust, but from fear of being hurt again. And nothing will ever change it. Nothing will ever fix it. The wounds may eventually heal but the scars will always be there. Always visible and always in the way.
They say money can't buy us happiness. But it can buy train tickets to a beloved one far away; and being with that person equals happiness.
They say jealousy is born from lack of trust. I say it's born at the bottom of our subconsciousness which is filled with complex fears collected all along.
Opinion of the public, the general, the 'all' is not important. It does not matter. It never did and never really will matter, nor come to any use. It will not affect our lives in any way. It may of course affect our actions, thoughts and point of view, but it's all but permanent. If we were to listen to the voice of others we would generally assume that a man that cries is not a man at all, a train ticket to see your love
is nothing but a piece of paper that you find on a pathway, and that jealousy should be taken as a sign of lack of trust in the other person we would all loose the last pieces of faith long ago.
Then why even care about the opinion of others? Cant we just simply let them talk, let them have their own point of view and still be unaffected by it. Too often, opinion of the public shapes our beliefs, our thoughts and words. Too often we base our answers on what others have already said. Why cant we simply get in the habit of independent thinking and shaping our own point of view?
So I say- tears make a real man. Money can indeed buy us happiness and jealousy is not synonymous to 'lack of trust'.
Jealousy is rather a form of fear, which sometimes reaches its extremities, slowly making its way from the bottom of the previously hurt subconsciousness to the heart and spreading rapidly to the blood-system making you feel as if nothing could get as terrifying as this. One, theoretically small impulse can make your hands shake, your heart race, your legs numb, your face is covered in tears in seconds, your lungs forget how to work. Your surroundings become a blur and all you want is to run and hide forever. Not because you feel betrayed, but because you feel worse, disappointed, worthless. You can't do anything about it. And I can't do anything about it.
It feels as if everything you thought you meant to that person was built on an unstable ground, as if he decided to show you there still is someone more important, or at least, as important as you are. That you will never be THE most important person in his life. And it hurts double as much if you have experienced something like this before from the same person and the wounds aren't fully healed yet. He made you believe you are not important to him once, he can do it much easier the second time. That's the way it works.
Even if you know he loves you, even if you know you're the only one, it will not be possible to fully assure you that you're the most important person to him in a long, long time. Old wounds make foundation for our fears and beliefs. And it's not that you don't trust him, it's the old wounds that don't let you be completely sure. It's like a door that you try to close, but there's something stuck in the door frame and you can't close it completely. That's how it works.
So I say- jealousy is not about the lack of trust, but from fear of being hurt again. And nothing will ever change it. Nothing will ever fix it. The wounds may eventually heal but the scars will always be there. Always visible and always in the way.
