Saturday, 26 January 2013

Heartbeats speak your name

All those nights you leave me in my head. Those nightmares of being alone, of feeling the ghosts rising. Feeling their breaths on my night-cold skin. They freeze, they take me in. Into the cold.
Into the coldness of the lonely. Of everything I hate so much. They push me into nothing. The cold space of the aftermath of your kiss feels like heaven, though I know they will wake me up.
So I wander, so I suffer as I get used to the darkness of what's left of us.
Here they come again. They catch me as I fall and as they touch me, I become one of them.
I am the ghost, I wander, wait for the fallen. Pray for the sins of broken love.
What have we become? Can you hear it?
It's the silence thats between us, it grows, and  takes us in. She became a part of us. It speaks for us in the dark. She watches us fall and cry. We can't kill her, she has the knives. One move and she'll get us. The silence of our love. What have we become to take them in? To take another ghost into us.

Will we live? Or will we die?
Rip my chest open, take out my heart. Keep it beating in your hand. Can you feel it? It's all yours.
But I am the ghost, and you can't see nor hear me. I'm not there for you.
You let me go with them. To be like them. To walk forever and watch the darkness inside you grow. There's nothing I can do about it anymore, I can't stop you from going the other way.
I am the ghost of your loving and I cannot stop you. I can only let you push me into nothing.
As you did before.
I'm not afraid, I have lived through it. I can go again. Until the day my heart stops beating your name.
Let the ghosts take me in, let them take me love. We'll be back for you one day.