Autumn

It's autumn. Autumn already. The golden smell of it is absolutely everywhere. Looks so good. But there are some side effects of this golden time of the year.
Something happens. Pressure raises. Rain falls. All of that and more have a great impact on... ourselves. Oh, the amount of melancholy in the air...
Going somewhere else, surrounded by nothing but millions of thoughts. Good ones. Bad ones. These completely twisted and plainly normal. All of that, and horrible philosophic moments... do you all go through that during that time of the year or is it just me, being me?
And, either way, it's a perfect time of the year to stop and think over things that are happening in our lives. To think about what we want, what we need. What are we expecting from our life and from ourselves? To plan things, before they happen. No. No. Of course not. We can't, we just can't over plan things. It's not possible to go through our lives with a timetable in one hand and a 'perfect recipe' for life in the other. There is NO recipe. We can't plan things... If we knew exactly what would happen to us tomorrow, in a week, in a month time... we wouldn't be surprised when it would happen. Our lives would become as boring and pointless as lives of gold fish. Swimming in circles, seeing the same things everyday, knowing what would happen each day. Nothing knew. Nothing unexpected.
Who would like that kind of life anyway? Would our miserable existence make any sense if everything was planned way ahead? What would happen if something didn't go with the plan? What would happen is something went completely, fatally wrong and we wouldn't have a plan 'b' to make things right? Would we go utterly absurd? Even more absurd than we would be...? Would that even be possible?
And where are the answers to all these questions? Life doesn't give us answers. Not even one. Not even a hint to tell us if we are making the right choices. If we are going to be happy. Satisfied with our lives and who we are. Life, or some may call it just a plain existence, (as there is a difference between the two of them and I'll write about this later on) wants us to make mistakes so that we can learn from them. Oh, at least that's what I think.